Emotional Revolution

I am supposed to be writing about biofuels. But I always do my best writing here when I'm supposed to be writing somewhere, or about something, else. That's just the way of it.

Life is not easy. I'm wondering how we ever came to the conclusion that it was supposed to be?

All I know is that my 66 year old grandmother has been in the hospital for a month... and a 15 year old boy died the day before yesterday after spending weeks in a coma...

I know that we are faced with questions that have no answers. And we are thrown into this cycle of life that is continuously changing...

You find yourself in your very last week of college... ever. A life you've known for four, maybe five years, is coming to an end. There will never be this many people around again. No more community bathrooms or parking tags or greasy cafeteria food. And maybe you wonder what life outside those walls will feel like...

Or you're stuck in a job you hate. Or starting a new one that terrifies you. Or you love your job but dont make enough money.

You want to buy an engagement ring, but can't even make ends meet. Maybe you want to take her on a date, but life is just too crazy, people are too demanding. Maybe you want to sleep in your own bed tonight, but she, your other half, needs you by her side.

Maybe you're facing a move. A change of location. Or you feel unsafe in your own home. Maybe you've become static... and this place where you are is no longer where you need to be... but leaving just doesnt seem like an option. Or maybe your heart is somewhere else entirely. And your body just hasn't caught up yet.

Maybe you are worried about the world... your mind is filled with thoughts of sustainable living and nonrenewable resources and energy efficience... about those who labor to give you your lifestyle... about being selfless and innovative and free.

Some of us are angry at God right now.

Some of us have just succumbed to the tears... all but let our bodies collapse beneath us.

Others are enjoying the sunshine today.

Our minds are consumed with thoughts and feelings.

We are stressed and stretched too thin and we are scared.

Or we are excited.

Or we miss you.

Or all of these things rolled into one.

Life is not easy.

I've heard you're supposed to take it one day at a time... but I haven't learned how to do that yet.

All I know is that I can't resist the revolution... with this unpredictable life, these unpredictable people, these haphazard ways of living... there's no telling where we'll end up.

But we count on His grace.

And we cling to hope.

And we treasure peace as if it were worth more than gold...